el nino

my brain is flooded with thoughts....

life.love.dreams.hate.parents.lostlove.goals.aspirations.work.happines.loneliness.deceit.FAKENESS.trust.

.....i can only pray for the rescue team to notice me...

save room for my Love.

ifeelcrowded.

Give me Liberty or give me Death.

Do not use your L I B E R T Y to indulge your passions.....


i often find myself comitting sin and taking advantage of my relationship with God to validate my actions and ask for forgivness.
I need to recognize my doings, correct them if they are wrong, and put them to a hault. i would not have to continuously repent if i followed the scripture.

i use to talk to God and say i dont want to ask You for forgivness when i know i am goin to go back and do the same thing again. I knew it was a big step in realizing what i was doing, but i needed to officially take matters and fix them. Im starting Today!

When you know God and Trust in Him, it is then that you can truely become Liberated.

half empty or full.

your cup will always be half empty, because u lackthe ability to be a man of your word.

EFF YOU.

Your words arent worth a rusty hepititus needle.

But i wish you the best.

kiss me and ill kiss you back

great night lastnight.
idk what to say.
INCREDIBLE.
iLove it.

yum.

take one

take two.
and thats all it takes.

ugh. TRY ME!

a night on the town.

FairFax Poetry Lounge was a bust Lastnight.
First off 2 of my sisters and My Bestfriend Ebony were Late.
We had to wait for the second session.
Behold a Lit stage, with only bean bags to rest our {ocks.}
Laughing at performers. Because Sharifa thought it would be funny to say
"5 dara" in chinese dialect while holding up 4 fingers and meaning 5 dollars.
We left the Lounge around 1230.
Effin lost in Hollywood.
Ebony turns into a 711.
Sushi that taste like Oatmeal.
a HOBO groaning, and whaling outside her window.
We give him the Oats lmao
The negro threw it away
WTF Right.
We are still Lost.
We pull into a gas station to find that the creepy looking crypt keeper is lurking outside his counter
we scream.
Next Pull up next to a Glistening Black GMC,
a re-FINEd Caucasian male around age 32 says 101 south is about 3miles down.
Ugh Gorgeous.
We get to the freeway
out jumps GOSSIP GOSSIP GOSSIP
we cant stop.
I hate this biznatch, she is my bestfriend lmao
she makes me laugh more than neccessary.
I love the World.
come share a night on the town with me!

chubby bunny.

im currently sitting in my moms house.

in my room.

lights off.

Mr.Deeds Dvd Menu music playing.

Fan on magnum speed.

Laptop scorching, causing my thighs to perspire.

red light flashing on my curve.

too lazy to check my texts.

ugh...mybirthday balloon slowly releasing helium....

im stuffing marshmellows in the lower region of my face...as if im in an intense match of CHUBBY BUNNY

im not bored. im just posted. LoL

walk by faith.

i had a weight on my shoulders that i've carried for 2 years. This was causing my relationship with my family to deteriorate and my life to feel like it was at a hault or forever declining. They forced it out of me, But i knew it was time. it felt so good to have my mother hold me and release the hurt that had been effecting my world so negatively. i owe it to myself to never go back. i owe it to myself to feel worthy again. i owe it to myself to look in the mirror and say you deserve the world. Things can only look up from here as long as i Walk By Faith....

rate my success.

Great Night With People I hardly Know.

Martee's cousin.Stevi's. her bestfriend Elysse& kyle.My Fatima&Amira. and someothers. Too Fun!

Santa Monica pier to Hollywood Blvd. MAGNIFICANT!

Alvern Street, Los Angeles to Lincoln St, Pasadena.

Home.

Eliminating 4am to 9am Bliss.

Rate my Success.

Blame it on the Boogie.

Rest in Paradise Michael!

"And my goal in life is to give to the world what I was lucky to receive: the ecstasy of divine union through my music and my dance.”

-Michael Jackson

what a world!!!

THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!

• Emancipated from heartache


• Greatest Family Ever


• Overwhelming Birthday Love


• Something to look forward to on Friday
• Life can now begin.

...and it feels so Good!

there is power in being at peace.

you created a fictional world, as we were the only two people in it. It's my fault! THEY told me to let you go and be smart. I struggled with the thought you might have been failing, but i was always there, i felt there was no way, i shut the game down, I WAS WIFEY! HA! Another June and another setback, i thank God for a smile that makes outsiders believe nothing is going on. I will eventually pick up the pieces. I will never be the same, but that will be a good result. I will share my heart and Laughter with the people that want to see me happy. Its been two and a half years of sadness and depression, but i have a whole lifetime to prevail.

{Random Thought}I picked up my eye contacts 2 weeks ago, and i felt that my eyesight was corrected. Judging by the outcome of all this NOW ..i have vision...I CAN SEE!

i lied i do need to Blog.

Little Brother Has Taken My Life and shifted my presupposItions about the NEW, Old and, Underground Rap.

"When you ego trip, you just lose your luggage."

not a revealation.

i dont feel like blogging today.

Sa-Ra Fam.

the business.

"do me gurl"
since summer '08

i miss {yuS}

i miss my sisters.
ugh.
that's why i blog. LMao

color blind.

2nd period BAND! :/

he's white.

she's black.

he has 1 sister (USC)

she has 3 (UCLA)

he aims her, expresses attraction to her.

she smiles, but would have never thought ...HIM???

pure insanity

he has always been cute,

but now, NOW, HE IS FINE!

where does she start, she is used to the usual.

Fitted cap, skinny Jeans, swagger'd out, Gangstuh lean lmao

he's a Jesse Mccartney and Zac Efron

...he's amazing

....why does she see color...why cant she just be color blind?

dance.sex.music. HIP HOP

i have roots.

the Healer.

what a day.

if you want that.

its a wrap.

and i won't look back.

down to the wire.

May 22nd 2oo7- you wrote me

June 23rd 2oo7 -you made me like you

July 14th 2oo7- you made me love

...sometime in April 2oo8...you changed

June 14th...you broke my heart...

2 weeks later...you crept back

Duration of the summer...spent everyday with you

school begins...i'm still at a loss...

.....to present...cant seem to find my way

2oo9

Knockin' at my Door, but you can't get in...

percipitation.
disist. please. although others enjoys u.
i DESPISE u. i mean thanks for cleanin the body of my automobile,
but what can you do for the inside???
not a BOB Damn thing.
You allow my fancy boots to get damp, and never apologize.
Your brothers lock me inside the house on occasions, because they wanna see me look good.
But your envious sisters force me to surface, cuz they want to see my hair frizz.
ANGELA DAVIS!!!
...ok ok ok...
im sorry for doggin you...
you're COOL on some occasions.
Like staying inside, yastin with the rellies (thank you L),
and watchin a bomb movie
but i mean BRO it's February,
leave me alone, and the hostility will come to a screeching hault.

Grammys '09

watching the grammys is not usually Shakiras thing.

One performance in particular caught my attention and tickled my fancy. HOLY SHIT! RADIO HEAD...USC marching band. Shakira is not a Trojan fan, her blood runs BLUE and Gold...even tho she stay SOOWOOPIN' (irregardless!) This production was phenomenal, Shakira's eyes were fused to the tv and her ears were pleased with soundwaves turned exclusive music. Now Shakira wants to explore the ins and out , up and downs, here and nows, of this musical sensation RADIOHEAD

"that"s myshit"

.soul filled with clouds of gloom, that are soon to split, your heart archetized like a nest of tears, but it is just that beautiful that it builds a cacoon of euphoric emotion in your throat. Burst into laughter while warm sun rays sediment in your arteries and ventricles. The blink of ones eyes is the very cadence of the snare A-MIlli-A-MIlli-A-MIlli. shit. please. Re-orchestrate my anatomy so i can rotate in the fashion of the crescendo with tools, make me Big, never miniscule. Stacatto that tone... heartbeats. 4-4time. ..."thats my shit"

thank you L